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Weekend gateaway at Lundu... spent my weekend with Khairul, sister and Kak Ju families. Yaaaa .... i need to go away and release everything in my minds.
Jiwa masih kacau... I hate it!!!! Still thinking of him... damn!!!
November....someone birthday... really want to wish him. But... i really cant remember his exactly date of birth...mmmm.... sign that Allah dah bantu aku lupakan dia kot!!! LoL... and then, semua mcm x dipermudahkan. Nak confirmation frm Mascara list, my list dkt laptop not up to date . nak tanyak Ain... mri case cancel.. too obvious, Allah x restui apa yang aku nak polah... so just forget it!!!
Ok... forget about him for a while.. Guess who i met?? Yusuf Roy!!!! Hahaha... it has been almost 15 years i never meet him. Since we leaving St Joseph... lama sih!!! But good thing about him, he still friendly like before... not like that guys.. anak orang kaya tu!!!
This month gonna be a busy month for me... almost every week i fly.. to kl... to miri... and then...run...and run... only available at the end of month... yaaaa... this the way for me to forgot everything...
Ya Allah... kau berilah petunjuk jalan terbaik yang haru aku pilih dan permudahkanlah segala urusan ku Ya Allah...

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