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Days 93

Yes... it has been 93 days...
And Faza still like this!!!
Now i know my weakness
Im a strong person before
A strong kakak for her adik adik thalas
But when it comes to love or being hurt, Faza jadi selemah2 insan...😢

Yup... im now a bit protective..
I can say... sombong...ya... for my own sake..
I just want to protect my heart
From being hurt again
Once is enough
I dont care of orang anggap Faza sombong now
Back to normal
Just like what i do before
Overprotected my heart
For this while... i really take care of my heart
Im not letting people hurt it.. not even touch it
But once i let people touch it... they hurt it... until it broken into pieces... 😢
I need to recover it back...

'Bukan sombong... tapi menjaga.. Menjaga daripada terjatuh pada yang salah '..

Ya... i should hold to this now... sombong... sebab x nak terjatuh pd org salah... it happened before.. so i'll make sure its not going to be happen again...
Lesson to be learn Faza.... that my promise.. sorry...  Faza sombong sikit sekarang... that the best!!!! The best for myself.. so please dont blame me. People make me changed...

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