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Day 90

Yup...it had been 90 days. What can i say is that, im stronger but still not strong enough. I can hide it in front of everyone. But not in front of Allah.. i'll cry...again...and again.... its not easy..😢
But i know i can do it. Sebab Allah xkan turunkan ujian ini andai aku x mampu untuk mengharunginya. What i need to do is to stay strong.

Still not talking to him. I cant be hipocrite. Pretend to be happy and talk like usual with him. NOPE!!! Definitely not going to be happen. I do what I think the best of me. To me, he is nobody now. Someone that i just know recently. Trying my best to forget all the memories that we had before. Ya... i cant trust myself when it involve heart n feeling. Hati manusia itu Allah boleh bolak balik kan. What im worried is that, the feeling come back again. Things that i trying to avoid to be happen. Biar sakit sekarang, jangan sakit buat kali kedua. Lesson to learn, choose wisely and dont simply trust people. Yes, admit that i have trust issue now. I dont trust a guys anymore. But depends with who... if him, definitely cant trust anymore. Broken... just like a mirror.. hancur berkecai... not going to be same anymore.

Tomorrow gonna be day 91. I hope im more stronger to face it. Help me Ya Allah... You are the best planner... aku redha dengan segala perancanganmu. I know good thing will happen to me... Trust Allah... Sabar.... InSyaAllah... everything gonna be alrite.

Fazalena Johari... trust yourself.. you can do it!!!!

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