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i have a friend... who owz with me... no matter wat happened... when i'm sad, when i'm happy, when i cry, when i laughed... she owz there... but now, i think i lost her.... i can see her, but i felt very far from her... time can change us into different person.. we thought that we know each other.. but actually it's still not enough.... i tried to be the best friend...but still can't... how i wish i can turn back time.... so, i dun have to face tis critical situation.. situation tat i never expected to be happened in my life.. how i really wish for that........

dulu kini dan selamanya.. kau tetap sahabat di hatiku... namun, kini kita umpama dalam dua dunia yang berbeza.. dekat..tetapi pada hakikatnya kita semakin jauh... ternyata masa telah mengubah kita menjadi dua insan yang cukup berbeza... di mataku, kau cukup berbeza... bukan seperti insan yang pernah ku kenali dan bagimu.. mungkin aku juga sudah berbeda... tapi, hakikatnya, aku masih insan yang sama yang pernah kau kenali satu ketika dahulu... hati kecilku pernah bertanya kenapa ini berlaku? siapa kah yang bersalah? aku? atau dia? percayalah... walau apa pun berlaku.. kau tetap sahabatku selama... biarlah aku melihat dari kejauhan sahaja..wahai sahabat...

SLI...i dun want to mention her name...but, she's the one  tat owz object my ideas or opinion!!! but becoz of respect, i just keep in silent. although actually i really want to protest..but how??? the reason, owz same person..then if other people not interested n not willing to pay by their own, what to do!!! WE r the one tat owz support n take part in every activities or event ..so we deserved it wat??? at the end, if they need speaker, who else they will ask? ME...AGAIN...it owz back to me..a lot of adult patient tat can share their xperience..but at the end, they'll looking for me...life sumtimes complicated..because we r the one tat make it become complicated..

it's sound terrible...seem like our friendship doesn't like before...we getting far frm each other..i'm tired of being a program planner...the one tat owz plan evrything, while the rest waiting for an order..=(..y dun sumtimes, they being a planner, and i only the participant?????????  maybe it's time for me to rest... dun want to plan anything, at least for a while...... juz wait a call frm them......sengaja nak jauhkan diri...biar dia rasa sumthing is missing in her life.. dunno, maybe i'm the only one tat feel tis, or i'm jz being too emotional......for tis week, wat i want to do is, juz being alone...MIA..boleh ke???hehehe..

i tot it's going 2 b fun... cz she's here...but, it's not as wat i expected...1st, she broke her promise. although i noe it's not her fault..but still consider as broken p2p...hehe..y i said tat? bcoz it's seem hd been planned or i dun think it co incident.. she gt tat thing, as exactly as wat we really want..it make me really disappointed. 2nd thing, i dunno want to blame who!!!!!!!! y they owz keep doing the same thing!!!!!!!!!! i jz really want to say, plz understand my situation...... still hv 2 day of holiday, i dunno it's going to b fun or not..hopefully yes....

y tis thing must happen 2 me??? yg suka kt aku, terlalu muda....then bila i like sum one, he oledi hv sum one else!!!hate tis feeling.....:x...i really hope can find sum one yg really like me, n so do i!!! tp knk susah glk....huhu..=(..To be frank, sumtimes i hope can be like other ppl, do wat they think rite...at least they tried.. but it was so difficult for me to do it..seeing my friend with their couple, make me think y i can't be like tat?? hv sum one who really luv and care abt me...but i noe i'll find him..but dunno when.. it really disappointed when u see the one tat u like oledi hd sum one else, n at the same time, u can see hw he really take care of his loved one...really2 disappointed...hw i wish i wz tat girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i really hate bila org janji then broke their promise!!! mmg reason dia kukuh, but i really hate if i already plan for sumthing, and then they ask wait for them.. but at the end, they can't do it... rasa nak buat konfrontasi jak, or mogok or ignore jak cdak nya.. but i'm not tat kind of person.. :-(...mudah sgt nak maafkan org...i wish sumtimes i can say no to it!!!!!!!!!!!