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72 days.... and im still like this oh my!!!! Faza!!! until when???? stop it Faza.... you have to do something Forget him Forget all the memories he's nothing now none of my business  I know its difficult its not easy but you have to do it no choice Faza There is a reason behind all of these You know it.... so try to accept it... Every morning i wake soooo early... SO... what else i do?? Tahajud.. but i think im a bit stronger now I dont cry a lot during tahajud not like before but i cry a lots after isya...and during mengaji... dunno why....:'( it takes time... but i know, i can do it lets time heal everything i cant wait all of this over im just tired with everything im tired of crying im tired of over thinking Ya Allah... give me strength please... :'(

Dear Faza, days 71 It's more than enough its exceed your own target its time for you to really-really move on forget everything I know its not easy You struggle a lots  You cried a lots You stress with everything that happened but Faza.. you are strong girl you had been faced some many challenged in your life before you lost a lots of thalassaemia and cancer friends you almost lost your bestfriend a.k.a Zanel you been infected with H1N1 you have Steven Johnson Syndrome due to Exjade you injured yourself and got 8 stitched while working for health screening name it!!! you face it with BRAVE and SMILE!!! please don't be weak just because one person one person that hurt your feeling and you forgot a bunch of families and friends that loves your everyday Dear Faza, Please appreciate your life.... you known as Kak Yong that always give courage to her thal sister and brother you always motivate them to think positive in life you always give advice to

Weekend gateaway at Lundu... spent my weekend with Khairul, sister and Kak Ju families. Yaaaa .... i need to go away and release everything in my minds. Jiwa masih kacau... I hate it!!!! Still thinking of him... damn!!! November....someone birthday... really want to wish him. But... i really cant remember his exactly date of birth...mmmm.... sign that Allah dah bantu aku lupakan dia kot!!! LoL... and then, semua mcm x dipermudahkan. Nak confirmation frm Mascara list, my list dkt laptop not up to date . nak tanyak Ain... mri case cancel.. too obvious, Allah x restui apa yang aku nak polah... so just forget it!!! Ok... forget about him for a while.. Guess who i met?? Yusuf Roy!!!! Hahaha... it has been almost 15 years i never meet him. Since we leaving St Joseph... lama sih!!! But good thing about him, he still friendly like before... not like that guys.. anak orang kaya tu!!! This month gonna be a busy month for me... almost every week i fly.. to kl... to miri... and then...run...an