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It has been a year :'(

Ya... a year... so many thing happened. I can say, i am a bit stronger. still crying, but not like before. Faza hanya menangis di depan Allah sahaja. That what i always pray for. Biar kuat depan manusia, dan rebah di depan Allah sahaja. Dan Allah makbulkan doa itu.

I can see, the reason behind everything happened. Sedikit demi sedikit Allah tunjukkan hikmah di sebalik semua yang berlaku. Alhamdulillah... Terima kasih Allah kerana sentiasa melindungi hambaMu ini. 

Sakit? Its still there. Not easy to forget everything. Forgive but not forget. Let time decide everything. Its hurt, really hurt. To see him everyday. How you try to avoid him, but he still there. Hanging around your workplace. looking for my attention? Nope.. it wont work dude. tawar hati. One thing i noticed, since berik balit all the gifts yg nya berik, he never show his face at my workplace area. Terasa? Who cares now? Dont bother at all. I dont want to keep it. You like it or not, its up to you. The most important thing, i just want to forget about you, throw you away from my life.You have no idea how suffer i am. How i'm struggle to get up. 

What goes around, comes around. Kifarah Allah sentiasa ada. Do good and good thing will happen to you, and if you do bad, bad thing will come back to you too. I can see it happened to you now. So many bad thing happened for the past one year. So many people dissatisfied with you. I never pray for it. I only leave it to Allah hands. Faza serahkan segala-galanya kepada Allah. He knows better.. He plan better.. cz HE'S the best planner.  I always keep that in my mind. 

Ya Allah... sesungguhnya kepada Mu aku serahkan segala-galanya. Kau lebih tahu yang terbaik untukku. Kau telah rancang yang lebih baik untukku. Aku redha... aku pasrah... i know, you wont leave me alone in this world. I always have you in my life... =)

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