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Alhamdulillah...

Syukur Alhamdulillah... only that i can say.. Received phone call from Zanel yesterday, quite suprise bila nangga nama nya keluar kt phone.. Mula-mula wondering maybe mama kot!!.. Then mama bagitau ada orang nak cakap. Guess what?? It's Zanel.. Sooooo happy.. Paling best, Zanel ingat lagik nama akak nya tok.. Kak Faza..hahaha.. Zanel dah boleh kelaka, recognize some people (include me!!!=) ) and maybe discharge this week. 

Still remember first time jumpanya time masih unconscious. Look very terrible. Wayar here and there. Line sia sitok jak. Sampe kt leher pun ada juak. Setiap kali ngabas nya, setiap kali ya lah juak ngagis. Mama gik senyum nangga..hehehe.. 6 hari kt KL, 2 kali jak ngabasnya. Weekend nang x pergi, sebab tauk confirm banyak yang ngabasnya. So, just pergi weekday. One day before balit, ngabasnya, look better compare 1st time ngga nya.. Dah sedar, tapi masih khayal. Ya pun dah syukur gilak2, coz Prof Syed mdh, mun boleh sedar before hari Isnin. So, Ahad malam, mama received news, Zanel dah sedar. Alhamdulillah.. Dapat juak ngga nya sedar before balit Kuching. 

Luckily mama selalu update kat FB. so at least tauk nya pun current progress. Bila mama madah Zanel hilang ingatan, sedih gilak-gilak. Dalam fikiran, 'confirm Zanel x ingat ngan aku'. Yalah, sedangkan adiknya nya pun, Zarul lagik x ingatnya, apatah lagik kmk orang yang jarang jumpa. So, dah pasrah. That why, bila nya sebut nama marek, 'Kak Faza', i was very2 excited.  X sangka, Zanel dapat ingat. Syukur Ya Allah.. Semoga Zanel kembali sihat seperti dolok. Doa akak sentiasa ada untukmu Zanel..

Get well soon Zanel...
Nanti kita pergi Abu Dhabi....=)

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