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Day 191

Nice number!!!! Lol

Nothing much i can say.. i need to be strong. Keep that in my mind. I can do it. I can forget him. I can forget everything.
Not easy i can say. Really need to struggle a lots. Really need courage.
I spent my night with hajat, tahajud and isthikarah. Almost every night. That the only way i can get my calmness in my life.
Its work.. but takes time. I dont mind to do it. As long as i get back my happiness.
And the reason also why i always look tired. Everyone say the same thing. U look very tired Faza... ur eyes... u ur eyebag.. even Dr Chew noticed it.
I try to sleep the earliest i can. So i can wake as early as 3am.. then no more sleep. Mau nya x keluar segala eyebag!!!😅
I hope everything will end.. i dont know how long i can stand. Tired... really tired.
Ya Allah... ease everything for me.. i cant wait all of this over.... i know, good thing will happen to me.
'Disetiap kesukaran, pasti akan datang kesenangan'... Amin...

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