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Day 170

Yes... i miss u...
but
i try not to care of you...
I try to ignore you...
I try to forget about you...

But...
Its not easy
The more i try..
The more i think about you..

But...
I need to do it
For my own sake
I dont want to be hurt anymore
I dont mind to be hurt now...
Coz i dont want to continuosly being hurt in future

Im confuse with your behaviour now...
U seem trying to get close with me
But sorry dude... its not going to be happen...
U hurt me before
And yes... i wont let it happen anymore
If u r looking for the OLD Faza...
That owz take care of u...
U wont find her anymore
That OLD Faza no longer exist
GONE...
And yes... u are the one that responsible for that...
U make her disappeared...
Faza that u see now is someone that cold hearted and heartless...
Be honest... i miss that OLD Faza too...

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